Heey! i have a big news for all of you!
I QUIT SMOCKING!!!!... and i HATE IT !
i Sooo want a smoke! i would be so f-ing great! and i'm sooo stressed right now because like 2 people died this week and whell, i don't realy know them but it affects my friends so i'm feeling verry horrible and I was the person that announced one of the death to one of them my friends, she freaked but she did not show it. I also had this dream about my grandmother dying. it looked sooo realistic! i cryed for bout 5 hole long minutes after I woke up... it's horrible!
and then, my friend's boyfriend is beeing an ass with her and i realy hate him for that... like the girl is asome and she dosen't deserve all that shit from him. I thought he waz nice but he can be such an ass!
XD :P ----> I don't know y but with all that shit happening around me i'm able to stay happy!... or t'ill i explode but i don't know about that....
and kuz i don't have smokes, I CAN'T STOP EATING! ergh! i HATE IT ! i'm gaining waitght! argh!
and I'm totally into that guy but he has a Girlfriend!
it's realy pissing me off though kuz i just felt this way for someone once before and i was in love with the guy for 4 fucking ears and i know, that's pitifull but i can't help it so, whel i hope that i never see him again (the guy i love right now) because it realy hurts... even though i added him on facebook and took pics of his pics... i'm not a stalker right?
I don't mean to be... but i'm not following him all the time and looking at what he dose 24/7 so, w/e...
so i gess i'll just give up on boys... no, i'm not gowing for girls, i'm just gonna become a nun or something.
...lmao, hehe, me, a nun? wtf? I'll just put it like giving up on love. yeah, that's more like it!
and on top of it all, my friend called me yasterday SUPER depressed because of his fucked up parents.
i could not cheer him up!
...w/e, i saw him 2day and he was all fine...
The scary part is that i'm gowing to london in 5 days (YUPPY!) and with all that shit that happened, i realy hope that the plain won't crash... i think it will but with all those things, i've accepted death so i'm ready for it if it comes to me... i won't go to him though... theres just to much nice things in life to whaste it like that....
but if the plain crashes i gess i'll cut my wrists open and hope i'll dye of a loss of blood instead of drowned... i think that it's the worst death possible...
Ohh, i also have one of my friends who can't choose if she hates me or not but if she dose "it's for my own good" so now i'm all stressed about that, wondering if tomorow she'll hate me or not and w/e...
But the worst part of all is that a part of me likes feeling down like that...
lol, the reason to y i created this post waz to say how after i wread :"The way i think... when i`m ded... whel kinda... wtf! i`m not dead! actually i`m pretty mutch alive right now... :D " (4 posts lower then this one) i felt like i'm gonna die if i don't get a smoke... it's the worst thing ever, no one should start! and no one should feel how it feels when you quit.
...except for me... because then no one else would feel it...
yup, whel, w/e
May the souls that left their body and that left our physiqual world float away to the land of joy...
RIP
I QUIT SMOCKING!!!!... and i HATE IT !
i Sooo want a smoke! i would be so f-ing great! and i'm sooo stressed right now because like 2 people died this week and whell, i don't realy know them but it affects my friends so i'm feeling verry horrible and I was the person that announced one of the death to one of them my friends, she freaked but she did not show it. I also had this dream about my grandmother dying. it looked sooo realistic! i cryed for bout 5 hole long minutes after I woke up... it's horrible!
and then, my friend's boyfriend is beeing an ass with her and i realy hate him for that... like the girl is asome and she dosen't deserve all that shit from him. I thought he waz nice but he can be such an ass!
XD :P ----> I don't know y but with all that shit happening around me i'm able to stay happy!... or t'ill i explode but i don't know about that....
and kuz i don't have smokes, I CAN'T STOP EATING! ergh! i HATE IT ! i'm gaining waitght! argh!
and I'm totally into that guy but he has a Girlfriend!
it's realy pissing me off though kuz i just felt this way for someone once before and i was in love with the guy for 4 fucking ears and i know, that's pitifull but i can't help it so, whel i hope that i never see him again (the guy i love right now) because it realy hurts... even though i added him on facebook and took pics of his pics... i'm not a stalker right?
I don't mean to be... but i'm not following him all the time and looking at what he dose 24/7 so, w/e...
so i gess i'll just give up on boys... no, i'm not gowing for girls, i'm just gonna become a nun or something.
...lmao, hehe, me, a nun? wtf? I'll just put it like giving up on love. yeah, that's more like it!
and on top of it all, my friend called me yasterday SUPER depressed because of his fucked up parents.
i could not cheer him up!
...w/e, i saw him 2day and he was all fine...
The scary part is that i'm gowing to london in 5 days (YUPPY!) and with all that shit that happened, i realy hope that the plain won't crash... i think it will but with all those things, i've accepted death so i'm ready for it if it comes to me... i won't go to him though... theres just to much nice things in life to whaste it like that....
but if the plain crashes i gess i'll cut my wrists open and hope i'll dye of a loss of blood instead of drowned... i think that it's the worst death possible...
Ohh, i also have one of my friends who can't choose if she hates me or not but if she dose "it's for my own good" so now i'm all stressed about that, wondering if tomorow she'll hate me or not and w/e...
But the worst part of all is that a part of me likes feeling down like that...
lol, the reason to y i created this post waz to say how after i wread :"The way i think... when i`m ded... whel kinda... wtf! i`m not dead! actually i`m pretty mutch alive right now... :D " (4 posts lower then this one) i felt like i'm gonna die if i don't get a smoke... it's the worst thing ever, no one should start! and no one should feel how it feels when you quit.
...except for me... because then no one else would feel it...
yup, whel, w/e
May the souls that left their body and that left our physiqual world float away to the land of joy...
RIP
